Last Christmas, Che Yarnold had everything he wanted – 10 months free from drinks and alcohol, and time with his family.
Twelve months on, the Gloucester man has taken a turn for the worse. After an attack in Gloucester city centre caused him to lose half a ear, he relapsed into drugs use, having been given medication to treat the pain.
Che, now 40, was serving up Christmas dinner last year as a volunteer at Gear Project, after having been an addict for the last 19 years. Having enrolled himself into one of Gear's two dry houses, he was determined to get clean, and he did.
He spent 26 weeks in rehabilitation, fighting the addiction. And he was given the perfect New Year's present, spending time with his family, who he hadn't seen in years. He was also preparing to start at Gloucestershire College, training to be an outreach worker.
But this year is different. He has gone back to sleeping rough, after he was asked to leave his temporary accommodation in Cheltenham.
He no longer contacts his family, saying he does not want to make them suffer.
"Last year was the best time of my life so far," he said.
"This year, it's a new addiction. It was not like the one before. You know, stopping is the easy part. It's staying away that is really difficult.
"Last Christmas was the happiest I had been for 27 years, and I really miss that now.
"My family had put up with me and gone through the experience, but now, I feel like I have let them down. I feel I have let myself down."
Che in happier times last year
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He is determined to turn it around again, having done it before. Che is hoping to enrol in Livingstone House in Birmingham, a drug rehabilitation centre which he attended at the start of 2013.
"I cannot just be another statistic. I have to try and make it work," he said.
"It is going to be tough. The attack in April really did it for me. I'm not trying to justify it, because I self-destructed.
"After I lost my place in Cheltenham, I stuck my head in the sand and kept away from everything. Things just got worse from there.
"It's my resolution for next year. I want to get and stay clean."
He still gets panic attacks whenever he sees people approaching him now, but hopes it will go away in time for him to start rehabilitation.
"Living in the streets for as long as I had, using drugs, I didn't care and I just lost my pride and self- respect," he said.
"I just couldn't recognise myself anymore."
And he is worried about the closure of Gear in the new year, with daycare services coming to an end on January 3 as a result of funding cuts.
"It is going to cause chaos, so many people here rely on it," he said.
"They don't just support the homeless, they also help people who are on drugs, who have alcohol problems and all that.
"I can't imagine what it will be like without them."
He now needs £750 to start his rehab programme with Livingstone House. For more information on Livingstone House and how you can help the programme, contact them on 0121 753 4448.
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Meeting Che:
When I met Che in 2012, he was lost, unclean and very low in spirit. Staying at Gear's night shelter, he wouldn't accept that he needed to change.
But Christmas last year was different. He was full of vigour, clean shaven, and his eyes were clear. Ten months free from drugs and alcohol, he looked ready to start a new life in college and with his family.
And while he volunteered at Gear, I had the privilege to write his heartwarming story.
Sadly, to see where he was this year broke my heart. Che was always well-spoken and friendly. Although some might scoff at drug addiction, it takes courage and much honesty to admit to his troubles.
His battle with drug addiction is even more poignant considering the closure of Gear Project. I wish him the very best for the future, and hopes he can start his life anew.
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