A WOMAN who was hit around the head with an axe by her partner – leaving her blind in one eye and suffering from brain damage – has said part of her died during the attack.
But a new programme for domestic violence victims and their families has helped her to gain some of the confidence she did not expect to get back.
The Gloucestershire mum-of-three, who does not wish to be named, was left in a coma and hospitalised for a month following the attack in front of her children in 2009.
Her partner was jailed for eight years, but she was left with both emotional and physical scars she expects will never fully heel.
But the woman, who is in her 50s, has been attending the Your Future project, funded by Gloucestershire County Council, which is aimed at helping victims and families affected by violence.
She has started art courses and discovered a passion for pottery. She said: "I was able to talk to other woman who had been through a lot of the same things I had, I wasn't judged and I started to realise and accept that it was not all my own fault, that I didn't deserve it.
"It was the most amazing thing I could ever have wished for to be given the time and space to talk and once I started, I didn't stop talking.
"I'm very proud of the artwork I produced and it is a constant reminder to me that I am still here, I'm still alive.
"It has been so therapeutic and given me something really positive to focus on. What has given me confidence is talking about it to others and I could not have done that before.
"It is something I would recommend to anyone in this position – whether it is physical or psychological abuse you have been the victim of."
Although her children are currently not benefiting from the project, she hopes that at some point they will take advantage of the sessions that have been designed specifically for children.
She said: "Knowing what my children have been through is one of the things that still makes me really angry.
"They lost part of their mum, because a big part of me died that day, and it has been very traumatic for them. I kept questioning whether I was responsible for the attack or whether I did something to provoke it.
"But the programme makes you look at the perpetrator and makes you aware of how they work as well as making you realise it wasn't your fault.
"Some people don't even realise they are victims of this, particularly when it is psychological abuse, like most of it was in my case, because your confidence has been knocked and trodden on.
"The programme has made me see the triggers of what has happened in the past and made me realise. I will never forget what happened and I will never be the person I was because of my brain injury, but it is good to have something to focus on.
"You have to find a way of living with it and you need to talk about your experiences."
She believes talking has been vital for her family in starting the process of getting over the past.
"When you look at the statistics for domestic violence, I guess I am one of the lucky ones that survived, but sometimes I don't feel like I have been lucky," she said.
The Your Future sessions are led by trained professionals and start again in September for 20 weeks.